I Wonder

There are so many questions,

that spin through my mind,

all of which unanswered,

like why you treat me in such an awful way?

but never had the guts to say,

why you done it to me every day?

you really have no idea,

how much you affected me,

and how damaged I was inside,

it took me nearly a year,

to pull myself together,

and stop all of my tears,

why did you treat me so bad,

and make me feel it was my fault?

I wanted to hate you,

and make you feel hurt,

because of how you made,

me feel like dirt,

how come you never called?

to see if id have you back?

well i guess you had more sense,

but still no feelings,

but you never even asked me,

how i was dealing,

since you tore my world apart,

i had to pick up the pieces all alone,

coz my life was in shreds,

just like my heart,

you didnt even give me a second thought,

my friends say your on the re-bound,

until i tild them what your like,

i just wish it had of been me telling you,

to take the hike,

i may be bitter and i may be sad,

but when i see you now,

i have started to feel glad,

that I m not there,

for you to play me like a clown,

and make me put on a show,

i don't think you ever made me feel good,

the way a girlfriend should,

but never mind it's all in the past,

but i'll never watch you pull another fast,

i now have more laughs,

than you ever will,

even if it's not helped by an anti-depressant pill,

i'm gona make everything in my life worth-while,

coz i'm now the one with the biggest smile :)

Happy Birthday Sweetheart

Lets the lights get dimmer
n the moon shines brighter,
Let u n me get engrossed on each other,
No distance no passage
cud entangle 2 separate us,
Oh! My loving moon n d cool breeze,
Tell my beloved that I love him the most.
Let d air whisper and wind dance,
with the soft music of our romance.
And d fragrance of our love float in d air.
Let the world know and barriers break.
Let God give us some ways to meet..
D Way Krishna was born n cages got open !!
Oh Lord plz give us some ways 2 meet..
I Would love to kiss him
as the clock struck 12 n my darling turns 26.
Let the stars knw that
nothing cud twinkle more than his glittering eyes.
Let evryone rejoice when we both unite.
U n me disappear in d darkness of nite.
I get dissolved in u and u into mine.

THE SECRET To HAPPINESS!

Life is a vision, Imagination infinite, belief unconditioned

Drive yourself with full passion,

Engross yourself with richness of love.

Let your thought flow free,

Attach happiness to whatever you do.

Keep you aim by your eyesight.

Engross yourself into to fight for it.

Start living in your dream goal.

Then work for it to get it real

Keep short term goal for bigger aim.

Feel privileged to have it all.

Believe that you have already achieved it

Enlist things that make you happy

Begin with learning yourself.

A small leap towards your goal,

Is already a half way accomplished!

Think that only good things will happen to you.

Join the race of being a good human.

Cherish the moments you are already in.

Never try keep to high standards.

Wise thoughts controls wise actions.

Doing good deeds spreads happiness around.

Make good in bad out a habit.

Take a risk and feel the adventure.

Identity your fallouts, let it not happen again.

Never take unrealistic risks,

Make Care, Love, Share, Faith and Truth

Fingers of your hands

Intertwined with sacracy of God.

Spread love, the more will revert you back.

Learn to share the ladder of success.

Never forget yourself after reaching the top.

People spend their whole time knowing others.

They try hiding their own mistakes

By counting, highlighting others faults

Think, analyze before you act.

Actions determine character.

Never use others to achieve your aim.

Make life a vehicle, Enthusiasm its gears.

Attitude it’s steering, approach its wheels.

Confidence your keys, knowledge fuel

And Experience its seat belts.

See you are already on the road of

‘Secret to Happiness’

Tell me why!!

I was sauntering randomly,

When I met 'Opportunity'

Waving me to follow it

Without a second thought

And even knowing

What I was supposed tO DO!!!

I agreed to walk his way.

Just on my next track,

I saw 'Responsibilty', Waiting

Telling me what I was desired to do.

Without realizing the right or wrong,

And concerns about the outcomes.

I did what my conscience said,

Obeyed the instruction as it went.

I was jaded and pungent,

When a strong 'Belief' arose me,

This was surely not the right place

Where I am intended to be.

My enthusiasm and spiritsde away soon were diminishin

Still I hoped this will fade away soon.

I tried to keep myself occupied,

And never went out..

Stopped meeting people,

And getting involvedin social activities.

Constrained myself in my own world.

Missed the one whom I loved once.

I still remain confused of my life,

Why is all moving so fast?

Dissatisfied with the way it moved,

Pathos remains my way.

Ohh!! please someone guide me,

Which is the best way I should GO!!

I feel dejected and puzzled,

When I see grief in my parents eye.

What could I do to make them happy?

Why couldn't my intrest and desires,

Mapped with theirs?

Its all the same to where I started..

This is a beautiful article:

The woman in your life...very well expressed...

Tomorrow you may get a working woman, but you should marry her with these facts as well.
Here is a girl, who is as much educated as you are; Who is earning almost as much as you do;
One, who has dreams and aspirations just as you have because she is as human as you are;
One, who has never entered the kitchen in her life just like you or your Sister haven't, as she was busy in studies and competing in a system that gives no special concession to girls for their culinary achievements
One, who has lived and loved her parents & brothers & sisters, almost as much as you do for 20-25 years of her life;

One, who has bravely agreed to leave behind all that, her home, people who love her, to adopt your home, your family, your ways and even your family ,name
One, who is somehow expected to be a master-chef from day #1, while you sleep oblivious to her predicament in her new circumstances, environment and that kitchen
One, who is expected to make the tea, first thing in the morning and cook food at the end of the day, even if she is as tired as you are, maybe more, and yet never ever expected to complain; to be a servant, a cook, a mother,

a wife, even if she doesn't want to; and is learning just like you are as to what you want from her; and is clumsy and sloppy at times and knows that you won't like it if she is too demanding, or if she learns faster than you;
One, who has her own set of friends, and that includes boys and even men at her workplace too, those, who she knows from school days and yet is willing to put all that on the back-burners to avoid your irrational jealousy, unnecessary competition and your inherent insecurities;

Yes, she can drink and dance just as well as you can, but won't, simply Because you won't like it, even though you say otherwise
One, who can be late from work once in a while whendeadlines, just like yours, are to be met;
One, who is doing her level best and wants to make this most important, relationship in her entire life a grand success, if you just help her some

and trust her;

One, who just wants one thing from you, as you are the only one she knows in your entire house - your unstinted support, your sensitivities and most importantly - your understanding, or love, if you may call it.
But not many guys understand this......
Please appreciate "HER"

I'll never love!!!

I don’t want to marry.
Marry to anybody.
Engineer or doctor.
And I truly believe,
I love him utmost.
But I am afraid,
To speak about him,
To parents.
Even when they ask me.
If I have someone special
Who is my ultimate.
My heart stops me.
To raise my voice for him.
All my belief are broken,
And shattered.
The day I left him.
He screamed at me,
And shouted,
Whatever he liked.
As if I was the only one,
To be blamed at first.
I kept quite,
Coz I felt myself guilty,
To whatever I have done.
I didn’t know what to do next?
But surely, never forgive him,
For what he spoke then.
Those words itches my heart.
When so I remember him.
I have now realized,
The biggest fault I ‘have ever made.
Was to love him,
And lie for him.
I can never forget each day,
I tried to be happy
Being with him.
And sat besides him
To listen to him always.
And believed, I was made for him.
Why I am all alone,
With such nostalgic feeling?
Without you and my parents
I lost everything I suppose.
Never ever in my life.
I’ll love anybody
So much to die for him.
And lose him
To obey my parents at last.

I Loved and Lost

Why it all does happen?
To me all over again.
For the memories,
I struggled to forget.
Why is life testing?
Testing me all over again.
For the one,
I was blind in love,
I gave up everything.
Why did I smile?
To make him smile.
Why did I sake?
My vigor and honor for him.
Why did I lose?
Myself for him.
Why didn’t it work?
When I tried my best.
Why did I tried?
To make it all happen.
Why wasn’t I happy?
When everything worked well.
Why did I hid my feelings?
To make him feel better.
I have again been used.
Used by myself.
Again the things are the same.
With a difference.
I did it knowingly.
I feel pity for myself.
To risk my life
For the things,
That can never happen.
It’s the first time.
I have lost something.
But just not made
My parents cried.
I have lost...
All my beautiful days
I spend with you,
And lived for you.
But now could I,
Just live for myself?
Without the worthy tension.
For things to happen.
If I could just,
Smile for myself.
And better not risk again.
My life to swing,
On deadly pendulum.